I borrowed his laptop to print something and noticed a file on the desktop labeled โDO NOT OPEN.โ My hands hesitated, then clicked. It wasnโt porn or gamblingโjust a spreadsheet. But each tab had a name, and mine was last. I scrolled down and felt my throat tighten. Under my name, it read: โExit strategy if she ever โฆโ
I stopped breathing for a second. โExit strategy?โ What did that even mean? My fingers trembled as I clicked on the tab with my nameโJessica. The spreadsheet had bullet points. Cold, calculated bullet points.
- If Jessica cheats โ Contact lawyer (number listed), initiate breakup.
- If Jessica loses job โ Delay engagement, suggest separate finances.
- If Jessica gains weight (over 20lbs) โ Gently suggest fitness plan.
- If Jessica gets too emotional โ Limit time together, encourage therapy.
- If Jessica pressures for kids โ Postpone with โfinancial reasons.โ
I felt like someone had slapped me. My boyfriend of two years, Ben, the guy who made me soup when I was sick and told me I was his โforever girl,โ had mapped out a way to leave me. Not based on facts. Based on ifs.
I stared at the screen. It wasnโt just me. There were tabs for other womenโRebecca, Lindsay, Mariah. And under each of their names were similar lists. Rebecca’s had a note: โGreat in bed, but too needy. Give 6 months max.โ Mariah’s: โBeautiful, but talks too much. Backup plan if things go south with Jessica.โ
Backup plan?
I closed the file, my heart thudding so loud I thought it might break my ribs. I heard him coming down the hallway and slammed the laptop shut. He walked in with a smile, holding two mugs of coffee like nothing was wrong.
โHere you go, babe,โ he said. โHazelnut creamer, just how you like it.โ
I took the mug with a smile that didnโt reach my eyes. โThanks,โ I whispered.
All night, I couldnโt sleep. My brain wouldnโt shut off. Every nice thing heโd ever said felt like it had been rehearsed. Every hug, every kissโwas it all a script? A way to keep me warm until something better came along?
But I didnโt confront him. Not yet. I needed to think. I needed to know why. And most importantly, I needed to decide what I wanted.
Over the next few days, I watched him closely. Nothing seemed off. He still kissed me goodbye in the mornings and texted me throughout the day. But now I saw it all differentlyโlike Iโd pulled back the curtain and discovered a stage.
I confided in my best friend, Melissa.
โJess, thatโs sick,โ she said after I told her everything. โWho does that? Who keeps a spreadsheet of exit plans like itโs a business merger?โ
I laughed bitterly. โApparently, Ben does.โ
She shook her head. โGirl, you need to leave him.โ
But I wasnโt ready. Not yet.
Instead, I made a plan of my own.
I started taking notes. Nothing crazyโjust little things. How he treated people when they couldnโt give him anything. How he talked about his co-workers behind their backs. How he rolled his eyes when someone mentioned commitment in public. It all started adding up.
And then one night, something happened that sealed the deal.
We were out to dinner with his college buddy and his wife. The topic of kids came up, and Ben laughed and said, โKids? Man, I can barely commit to a gym membership.โ
They laughed. I didnโt.
Later that night, I said, โI thought we were on the same page about having kids someday.โ
He shrugged. โSomeday, sure. But like… maybe in ten years.โ
I was thirty-one. He knew I wanted them before thirty-five.
โBut you saidโโ
โI know what I said,โ he cut me off. โThings change.โ
I didnโt argue. I just nodded. And added one more mental note.
Over the next two weeks, I pulled back emotionally. Not enough for him to notice, but enough to give myself space. I visited my parents more often. I reconnected with old friends. I updated my resume.
And then I found something elseโsomething that made my stomach drop.
A receipt in his coat pocket. Jewelry. A ring.
But not from the jeweler weโd gone to together. Not the style Iโd hinted at for months.
I checked the date. Two weeks ago.
My heart raced. Was he proposing? Was that what this was?
Orโฆ was it for someone else?
That night, I searched our apartment while he was at the gym. I found the ring in his sock drawer, inside a different box from the one weโd picked out together. The name on the receipt wasnโt mine. It was Chloe. My blood ran cold.
I didnโt cry. I didnโt scream. I just stared at the diamond, wondering how long heโd been playing this game.
And then, I packed my things.
I didnโt leave a note. I didnโt need to.
I moved in with Melissa for a few weeks. She cried more than I did when I told her the whole truth. My parents were shocked, but supportive. And slowly, I started to breathe again.
But here’s the twist.
Two months later, I got a call from an unknown number.
โJessica? This is Chloe.โ
I froze. โIโm sorryโฆ who?โ
โChloe. I found your name on Benโs laptop. In that spreadsheet.โ
My heart dropped. โYouโฆ what?โ
โI was staying over at his place. He asked me to print something. I found the same file.โ
I couldnโt believe it. He was still using the same file. Still making tabs for women like they were part of a game.
โI saw your name and figured you were his ex,โ she said softly. โI just wanted to say thank you. For leaving. If you hadnโt, I wouldโve been next.โ
We talked for an hour that night. She was sweet. Smarter than heโd given her credit for. And she was done with him too.
Apparently, after I left, Ben tried to propose to herโbut not because he loved her. Because he didnโt want to be alone.
She said no. And she walked away, too.
A few weeks later, he sent me an email. Just a simple line: โI guess I deserve this.โ
I didnโt reply.
I didnโt need to.
Now, a year later, Iโm with someone new. His name is Tyler. He doesnโt keep spreadsheets. He doesnโt have โbackup plans.โ He just loves me. Fully. Messily. Honestly.
We laugh about everything. We fight, but we talk through it. We donโt keep secrets. And Iโve never once doubted that heโs here for the right reasons.
The truth is, Iโm glad I found that file.
Because sometimes the universe shows you something awful not to break youโbut to free you.
If I hadnโt opened that laptop, I mightโve married a man who saw me as a risk to manage, not a person to love.
So hereโs the lesson I learned: Listen to your gut. And when someone shows you who they areโbelieve them.
Real love doesnโt come with an escape plan. It comes with effort, patience, and the willingness to stay even when things arenโt perfect.
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