I thought Monica and I were close at work. We sat next to each other, joked around, and hung out after work. But one day, while borrowing a stapler from her desk, a small notebook fell out. I opened it. What I found inside took me off guard. It was a list. A long one. Names, dates, and single-sentence observations beside each.

My name was there too.

“Gina – acts sweet, probably fake. Keeps asking about my personal life. Watch her.”

I froze.

That one sentence changed the way I saw her. I stared at the page, hoping I’d misread or misunderstood. But there was no mistaking it. That was my name, and those were her thoughts.

The stapler suddenly felt too heavy in my hand.

I gently closed the notebook and put everything back exactly as it was. Then I sat at my desk and stared at my screen, pretending to work. My stomach twisted, and my brain spiraled. All this time, I thought we were genuinely friends. We’d shared lunches, laughed at the same office memes, even cried once over a rough client call. And now, suddenly, I felt like the punchline of a joke I didn’t know I was part of.

I spent the rest of the day distant. Monica didn’t seem to notice. Or maybe she did. That was the worst part—I couldn’t tell anymore.

When I got home, I debated texting her. Should I ask her about the notebook? Pretend nothing happened? Or just slowly pull away?

But curiosity got the better of me. That night, I found myself thinking about the other names in the notebook. There were a few I recognized—Janet from HR, Marcus from finance, even our team lead, Ravi. Each had little notes beside their names too. Some harsh, some almost kind, but all written like she was watching everyone through a microscope.

I wondered if Monica just wrote down her passing thoughts. Maybe it was therapeutic. I mean, who hasn’t thought things they didn’t say out loud? Still, putting it all down, in ink… it felt calculated.

The next morning, I tried to act normal. She offered me coffee like she usually did. I smiled, accepted it, and thanked her. But something in me had shifted. I no longer saw Monica as a friend. I saw her as someone gathering ammunition.

Over the next week, I started noticing little things. How she always managed to be around when gossip spread. How she asked innocent questions that led people to open up—too much. How she’d chuckle and nod, but rarely shared anything real about herself.

I kept my distance, but I didn’t say anything.

Until something happened that forced my hand.

We were in a team meeting when Ravi brought up an error in last month’s report. It wasn’t huge, but it was noticeable. He said someone had input the wrong numbers into the forecast sheet.

Before I could open my mouth to say I had helped prepare that sheet, Monica beat me to it.

“I think Gina worked on that section, right?” she said, tilting her head slightly.

The room went silent.

Ravi looked at me. “Gina?”

I nodded slowly. “I did. But I double-checked the numbers. I even emailed you the sources.”

He frowned. “Okay. I’ll review that again.”

After the meeting, I was furious. Monica knew I didn’t mess that up. But she’d thrown me under the bus anyway—with a casual tone and a smile on her face.

I wanted to confront her. I had every intention to. But something told me to wait.

That night, I took a walk. I needed air, clarity. As I passed by a small bookstore near my apartment, I went in on a whim. I browsed aimlessly until I found a journal with a soft brown cover. It reminded me of the one on Monica’s desk. I bought it.

When I got home, I wrote.

But I didn’t write about coworkers or mistakes or who I suspected of what. I wrote about how I felt. I wrote about betrayal, about kindness, about trust and how fragile it is. And as I wrote, something in me softened. I realized Monica’s notebook wasn’t just a tool—it was a shield. Her words weren’t just cruel, they were protective. She wrote about everyone else so she wouldn’t have to write about herself.

Still, that didn’t excuse the damage she was doing.

Two days later, I saw Ravi in the breakroom. He smiled at me.

“Hey, just so you know—I checked those sources. You were right. No mistake. Good job.”

I smiled back, but my stomach sank. Monica had known. And she didn’t care.

That weekend, I decided to do something I hadn’t planned. I printed out a few pages from Monica’s notebook. I’d managed to sneak another look when she left her desk unattended. I knew it was risky, but something in me wanted a record—just in case.

Then I wrote an anonymous note and slipped it into Ravi’s office mailbox:
“Be careful who you trust. Not everyone’s intentions are clean.”
No name. Just the pages.

I didn’t expect anything to come from it.

But things started to change.

On Monday, Monica was unusually quiet. She kept checking her phone, biting her nails. By Wednesday, she stopped chatting with people in the kitchen. By Friday, she was called into Ravi’s office for a private conversation that lasted over an hour.

When she came out, her eyes were red.

She packed up early and left.

Nobody knew why.

The rumor mill churned, of course. But no one had concrete answers. I didn’t offer any.

The following week, she didn’t come back. HR sent an email saying Monica had resigned for personal reasons.

I felt… empty. I thought I’d feel victorious. Relieved. But instead, I felt like I had participated in something that cost someone their peace. Even if she deserved to be held accountable, it still stung.

A few days later, I got a handwritten letter in my mailbox at work.

It was from Monica.

“Gina,
You probably sent those pages to Ravi.
At first, I was angry. But then I realized—it was a wake-up call I needed.
That notebook became a mirror of everything I was afraid of. Judging others was easier than dealing with my own issues.
I’ve started therapy. I’m moving to be closer to my sister.
For what it’s worth, I did like you. I just didn’t know how to let people in.
Take care,
M.”

I read the letter twice. Then I folded it gently and placed it in my new journal.

Weeks passed. Then months.

The team adjusted. A new hire took Monica’s place—Mei, a soft-spoken analyst who brought fresh energy to the group. We all clicked quickly.

But something had changed in me.

I started treating work relationships with more caution—but also more compassion. I realized people carry things you can’t see. Monica wasn’t cruel by nature. She was guarded. Paranoid. Maybe even scared.

And maybe… so was I.

I began inviting people to lunch more often. Real conversations. No gossip, no probing. Just listening.

That journal I bought? It became a habit. A safe place for reflection, not judgment. Instead of writing about what others did wrong, I wrote about what I wanted to grow in—patience, empathy, strength.

Then one day, a new girl joined from another branch. We were introduced, and she smiled shyly as she took the desk next to mine.

We started talking. Nothing big—just favorite snacks and how awful Mondays were. But it felt natural.

One morning, I saw her struggling to reach the high shelf where the company mugs were. I helped her, and we laughed.

She looked at me and said, “Thanks, Gina. You’re the nicest person I’ve met here so far.”

That one line stuck with me the rest of the day.

It reminded me that even after trust is broken, even after friendships disappoint, kindness still matters.

I don’t know what happened to Monica after she moved. I never reached out. She never did either.

But sometimes, I think about her. I hope she’s okay. I hope she meant what she said in that letter.

And I hope she found someone she could open up to without fear.

I don’t regret what I did. But I learned from it.

I learned that holding someone accountable doesn’t have to mean destroying them. And that sometimes, the best thing you can do for someone is tell them a truth they’ve been hiding from.

Even if it hurts.

Especially if it hurts.

So if you’re reading this and you’ve been betrayed, or you’ve betrayed someone… pause before you react. Look deeper. Ask why.

And if you’re like me—just trying to do the right thing, even when it’s messy—know this: doing the right thing doesn’t always feel good at first. But it will bring peace later.

Kindness doesn’t mean being naïve.

And trust? It’s something you earn, rebuild, and sometimes lose—but it always teaches.

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